What to say? Not much. Halloween is tomorrow and I'm going trick or treating (isn't that strange? Trick or treat becomes a verb.. when did it??) with Ayesha and Arney. Me and Ays are going as freaks (grabbing random clothes from closet and wearing weird makeup) and Arndog's going as a marshmallow. Hee hee.

Do you know how hard it is to shop for a guy? All guys need an amazon wishlist.

Also added another test result to my 'tests' page.

So I'm thinking that this Maybe It's Me is a brilliant show. I love it. It's too bad that it's pretty unrealistic too. It's so pathetic how television executives try to make their sitcoms/dramas real when they aren't at all. I mean, a formerly fat girl who suddenly becomes the girlfriend of the school's hottest guys? Let's see how that relates to my school: Number one, we have no really hot guys at our school. Number two, the cute guys all go out with whores (Omo you know what I'm talkin about). Number three, it would just NEVER HAPPEN.

Aah my internet is being stupid... Anyway, updated "Miscellaneous Links" and added the Layouts Page. I think. It's all at my new site.

I'm tired. I want to sit in front of the telly and stare at it. For a long time. Without my parents haranguing me about fricking SATs. All nice and cozy in a blanket. Maybe next to him... I wish. I've practically all but given up on him. Isn't that sad? I used to have these crazy long crushes (longest one was like 3 years), but now I find that I have shorter and shorter crushes. Am I developing CADD (Crush Attention Deficit Disorder)? Sad thought!

God I was a cute baby.

Is Popstars 2 on tonight? Ooh I watched Elimidate yesterday....shit it's on! I gotta run.

New personal site up! It's at Pixillated. I hope y'all like it. I spent quite a bit of time on it. Well, actually not really. But still.

queendom.com! fun fun.

Britney Spears's music label: "Wherehouse".. more like "Whorehouse".

My new personal site is about 80% complete.. it should be up soon. Name's pixillated. Got a better suggestion? Please, please do tell me.

Anyone seen the commercial for Datephone or something? It's a game for like ten year old girls where they are trying to guess who their dream date is from hints given on this "phone". Seriously, the guys running around on the beach who were the dream dates were like 18. Way to go there buddy.. got a commercial for showing off their abs to girls half their age.

You live in a Mansion.
You're married to Stranger.
You drive a Rolls Royce.
Your car is the color Blue.
You live in the state Minnesota.
Your honeymoon is Europe.
Your occupation is a Politician.
You have this many kids: 2 (1 male; 1 female).

Hee hee. MASH. Relive your childhood. Thanks to Kaiser.

I finally watched Star Wars: Episode I this weekend! Star Wars is one of those kinds of movies where you're like oh I don't want to watch it right now; I want something cheerful, but then you watch it and it's just great! Jar-Jar wasn't that annoying; then again, I was expecting him to be really annoying.. so yeah. I can't believe I saw Natalie Portman in "Diary of Anne Frank" before she started filming Star Wars.. I could have gotten her autograph. Stupid. Stupid stupid.

I'm spending less time online because people who spend more time on the internet are more depressed. I've been jogging more too and drinking more water. I am going to make myself be happy. ^-^

Terry looks like a total Gothy/scary person... he was wearing a hoodie in one of my classes with him and I could seriously see him being a person who does not good stuff to other people.

Let's see.. what else has been going on in my life? Oh! Ayesha's California guy isn't at our school anymore. :( I feel sad for her because he was the first crush she's had since the Asshole.

My site is so UGLY!!!!!!! I'm itching to change it already

Whoa. Major awakening from last night. I'll have to describe the party later. In the words of many people there last night, "it's exactly like a movie"! You've got the two little kids with ukeles/rats, gorgeous house, and tons of melodrama. Hell, it was entertainment!! I felt out of place, but I'm sure the next party I go to like it I'll have lots more fun.

Little 13 year olds are so jaded.

To anyone I sent an e-mail to through postmark.. I'm sorry if you didn't get it because postmark was having problems! Naughty postmark. *spank* God, I am tired.

Don't know what's wrong with my columns... i'll fix it later. Going to dinner at Zorbas!

Wow, Laura from AMC is truly evil. Aah!! I want Greenlee and Jake's romance to work out! Am I pathetic or what? But I love my soaps. ^-^

Yay, four day weekend is going super-well! Saw A Knight's Tale last night with Laura, Mel, and Livers. It was predictable but good. Heath added lots. Yummy. Livers, Laura, and I went to McD's after and there were these two guys sitting at the table next to us.. .the one facing me kept giving me looks. Hmm. Was there something wrong with my appearance? I didn't think so..

Melanie is laughing right now. BIG surprise. @ Library of Mayo. Going to leave soon. MUAHAHA. I won the election! You are reading the blog of the secretary/treasurer of Mayo International Relations Association. I was seriously having doubts about winning cause I was running against Rob, Molly, and Peter, who are pretty tough opponents.

How does one define true love of a certain type of music, of a certain band? Is it defined in the person who knows everything about the band, knows everything about past albums, or is it the person who enjoys it purely because they love the sounds? It's just weird for me because I really can learn to like any song, any type of music as long as I listen to it long enough. More later.

Yay!! MEA WEEKEND!! Partays.. all the way. I HATE ANNABELLE. She is such a shrew.

:) Who knew one's outlook on life could change so much after a few hours?? I finished my paper yesterday by around 8:14 pm. The sense of relief was amazing. I started dancing around singing Artful Dodger and hugging my whole family. After like 12 hours (including breakfast, lunch, and my frequent breaks), my four page paper was finished! Anyone have "Woman Trouble" by Artful Dodger downloaded?

Dumdedumdedum. Did my PSATs today. Hmm, feel okay about them. Don't want to jinx them. I wonder where that came from? You don't tell other people how you did because you are afraid you might get worse?

Why does the British version of the new P&P have such a pretty cover with a different photograph I've never seen? I want to live in the UK! Or Switzerland. Damn it, I hate to think of British people getting an extra scene or two...

Emode is seriously screwed up.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I hate school. I hate my life.

I'm a Millionaire?

You idolize Donald Trump. You aim to succeed — and you'll quickly crush anyone who stands in your way. You want money. You want fame. You want that big corner office. Your closet is brimming with red power suits. You know how to impress people, and you know how to have a good time.

You're very ambitious and personable, and you've got a great sense of humor. You care a lot about how you look. You're bursting with self-confidence, and people admire you for your achievements and determination. Behind that bold exterior, though, you sometimes worry that you're not good enough. But, hey, don't we all?

Professionally, you're extremely motivated. But you can be so critical of your work that it may be self-destructive. Nevertheless, people generally know that you're a solid, reliable person who can perform under pressure. After all, you read Forbes and follow proven strategies for success.

Ok, never thought of myself as being like that... Whatever. I dont' feel like re-taking the test.

Colin Firth is damn sexy!

Ayesha's party was huge. I felt really insignificant. And conspicuous. I realized how loud my laugh echoes. A lot of Ayesha's Pakistani relatives were there, and most of the women were gorgeous. So there I was, in my short v-patterened skirt, surrounded by these exquisite outfits made of all different colors and materials. :(

I've realized I'm never going to be beautiful. I'm always either "cute" or "pretty"... I mean, sure that's good and all, but who doesn't want to be gorgeous/beautiful?

That's Life is actually a pretty good show! In my opinion, at least. Last night the episode had to do with how a hockey player was going out with Lydia just for luck.. and how she had a 'spark' with her boss. Romance...... hee hee hee.

Oh, take a look at the hairstyle that we ended up with when Ayesha played around with my hair here. On homecoming we ended up with a more compact bun, but whatever.

Reading Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus and have, once again, an insight into how men/women act. So it turns out that men really do need to be told what to do, which is pretty sad because they should all have ESP! ;) Anyway, say the wife wants her husband to take out the trash. She shouldn't indirectly hint ("Oh the trash can looks pretty full") because he won't be motivated to do it, and she also shouldn't use "could you take out the trash?" because it is seen as weak. Besides, the man will think "Duh, I could take out the trash.." What the woman should do is use "Would you take out the trash?" Try it out in your head. Would definitely sounds better.

AHHHHHHHHHHH!! Got the Bridget Jones DVD AND a special edition of Pride and Prejudice that is digitally restored and widescreen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited.

Annabelle is really posessive of Cecilia. Everyone thinks so. The thing is that Cecilia lets herself be 'posessed'. Strengthen up, girl!

So we enter into day 5 of the "prospect"... I still don't know all that much about him. I'm starting to feel the old signs of a crush: insecurity, restlessness when near him, among others. It's just, when I talk to him, he looks at me this way.. I can't quite explain it. But I like it. He doesn't usually initiate a conversation though. Why?? Why don't guys initiate conversations with me, or just ask me out on a whim? I'll probably say yes. Well, to most people. Well, some people...

I had no idea so many people disliked Annabelle. Me and Mel were talking about it and there is actually a lot of anti-Annabelle sentiment out there.

Do I find certain people annoying because other people do, because of their appearance, or because they truly are annoying? That's a question I could ponder forever. But this morning in Latin, I was thinking about it, because there is ths one kid in my class who I used to talk to in fifth grade but now I just consider him rather pathetic. Hmm.

I was talking to the Rosses the other day and they were talking about girls who had 'faded out'. I never realized any girls were 'fading out'! What's up with that? How do guys determine who is fading out? Why do they even notice?

I nearly died laughing. Here. God, Ernie, you are so funny! It's very good knowing there are funny Asians out there. Chinese people have such a not-vibrant culture. I mean, what do we have? Showbiz: Ming-Na. Not very vibrant. Ah yes, Margaret Cho. Where is she? Damn it, why did ABC have to cancel her show from like ten years ago? We need more Asians out there!

Whoa, who's sadder than I am? My mind has me already engaged to him. Waking up next to him in bed. Whoa, getting WAY out here. But we all do that don't we? Hehe. Fun!

It's just that I know not much about him. I mean, does he like someone else? Is he thinking of asking this someone else out? I so want it to work. I sound whiny, but hey, this is my blog. So leave if you don't like it.

Go here. This is for people who wish that naked people were not on the internet so blatantly. Obviously not Rob and Lorenzo.

Damn it, I'm always thinking about random things in school and really want to write them down, but I never remember. Oh yeah! Isobel and Rufus. Rufus--damn traitor who can never keep his mouth shut. "Oh yeah I'm like your best friend, you can trust me! Why don't you ever trust me?" God damn, I wonder why. Isobel-- she's such a cool person but Rufus told her something that I told him in confidence and I don't think she would be too fond of what I said. It wasn't anything really personal, but still. Rufus! You're a bad boy!

Well, it's October 9th, and I really want my dad to buy me the dvd. Hey, early Christmas present.. anyone? Anyone??

So, these past two days have been pretty good! I talked to him yesterday and today. *sigh* It's still just a possibility though. We have history though. I hope it means something; I hope he doesn't have someone special yet. Please. It's just--I can talk so easily to him and he doesn't seem to look down on me as a ditz or anything like some people do. And I'm really not a ditz! I just act like one around Christina, or just because I don't want to be depressed. It's muchas better being happy. Sounds sappy, but life is so much easier.

Whoo. Makes me want to re-do my layout.

Who knew the guys I hang out with are so anti-swearing? I swore at KB and Brent got on my case. Hey, so I swear a lot. Does that make me a bad person? I guess I really should lighten up on it.

Vegetarianism: Not working. I've started eating meat again. I lasted around two weeks though! I figured that I really need the meat since we live in hick country where there aren't that many choices. As I've said before, if it isn't meat, it's fried or cheese. That's just how it is here. But what I am going to do is just lighten up on the meat. Not eat too much.

Lately my stomach has been hurting a lot around 3 o'clock. I don't know what it is...

I can't wait for OCTOBER 9TH!!!

Last night, I was sad at one point in the dance because I knew I wouldn't ever be able to have Cesar and Kevin. I used to talk to Kevin in like 8th grade and he even wrote a really nice long entry in my yearbook, but I don't know. He doesn't even seem to notice me, except for this one time last night where just as I was coming out of the ladies' room, he was passing by going into the dance and he just gave me this long, speculative look. God.

Once again, ought to be studying, but am posting instead! Insane. Definitely insane.

Homecoming: a blast! Y'all should definitely go with a good guy friend to a dance. It's so much more fun than going with some random guy you don't really know anything about but are just going with for the sake of going. Pictures will be up as soon as people develop their film. In the meantime, I present you with a picture of my corsage. Carina was here!! It didn't even seem like she was gone.

You know what pisses off? People who decide to push right through your dancing circle even when they can definitely go around. I really really felt like punching someone. And I'm usually the pacifist. And another strange thing: why is that no matter where I move to, there is always, ALWAYS, a female dancing behind me. Do you know how gross it feels to be dancin to the music and then you realize the bottom you were rubbing up against was a GIRL? ICK. Yew. Vice versa for guys.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! HOMECOMING IS FINALLY HERE! I'm excited. Me and Mel let out a few screams last night cause we were too hyped up. Isn't this sad? It's homecoming and I'm online. I should get off. Ayesha is going to call. I'll post pictures tomorrow. By the way, new layout for luverly dot org is coming! Sorry this post is so short..

Aiee.. 65% pure.

I got pamphlets from: Swarthmore, Boston U, Bernard, Columbia, USC, Middlebury, Pepperdine, and a few more I can't remember at the moment. It was so crowded at some of the tables. I felt bad for the people who came from little colleges in the Midwest where no one wants to go.. oh well.

I got a rose today! Thanks Arney! :) I hope you actually wanted to give it to me, instead of giving it to me because you thought I wanted it. Does that make sense?

I'm just wondering: what exactly does the money go to from the Sept, 11 funds etc? And all these charity concerts and whatnot? What exactly does the money DO? Maybe I'm just stupid, but I want to know.

I guess that real people's lives can be like soap operas too.. hehehe.. ^-^ You know who you are.

College fair tomorrow. I think I'm going to go talk to people at Swarthmore, NYU, USC, and some others I don't remember right now. Wish me luck!

So J.Lo got hitched. I'm betting it'll last... 1 year and two months. Just watch. Why do these Hollywood people get married anyway? Really. If they say they don't want publicity and paparazzi--well, they are just asking for it! It's sad that ten years is considered really long in a marriage (Cruise and Kidman). I mean, I read about people who have been married for 50 years all the time in the papers. Is it really that hard??