Even though I know I should be over this one guy, I keep on coming across things that remind me of him, of what it was like...

Sorry all my posts are rather random---anyway, did anyone watch ElimiDate last night? Ooh, it was a good one. The guy she chose was the one I hoped she'd choose even though he seemed too 'feminine' for her. You know? She said she was looking for a sporty honest blah blah blah type--but I"m glad she chose him. He looked excessively like Crispin Bonham Carter (Mr. Bingley in P&P)! Best looking one there definitely.

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

-Shakespeare Sonnet 116 (I SO want this to be read at my wedding--one of my dad's mentorees did it and it was so wonderful)

I LOVE VISINE--or at least the generic brand of it ($1.99!)!

Hmm.. Thanksgiving is so overrated. I got my SAT score back yesterday. It was pretty goshdarn exciting. I did so much better than I hoped for. ^-^ I'm hoping to raise my score though, cause Nathan had a 1470 the first time and then he raised it to a 1580 in three months. Isn't that amazing?

I can't wait until I start applying to colleges--I want to get out of this city! Well, large town is more like it.

And I did meet with my mentor and he is ever so nice. I'm so excited! I get to learn Flash and all sorts of exciting stuff like that.

I saw Shallow Hal Fri night with Arney. It was pretty funny---for those who have seen it, isn't Jason Alexander's 'thing' so ick?? Yes. It made me want to puke. But it really was a good movie. Thumbs up! I also saw Harry Potter on Thanksgiving. There were quite a lot more people than I expected to be there. It was also quite good, but I couldn't get over the small details that they missed. Like his eyes! They are supposed to be green, not blue. Sigh. I began to get teary eyed when Hermione is just like "Oh me, books and cleverness...", you know that part? Yeah, it was quite touching.

God, it's so confusing how I'm feeling right now. Certainly regulars of my blog will have heard about him and how he seems perfect for me, but now enters.. another him Let's call the second him ... uh.. Remington. Lately I've noticed Remi as a possibility, but I doubt he feels the same way. Just like I doubt he feels the same way. I was thinking this would make a really good post but it really doesn't. But I certainly have been thinking about Remi a lot lately. I shouldn't though. I don't make any sense.

Yay! E-Risk night tonight! All girls are welcome--Supi's house at around 6 or 7.

I have an interview with my mentor today. I feel hideous and unprepared. But I am horrendously excited! I think I'm working with someone who works on this staff. I think. I hope.

Hey Kaiser.. you have a font named after you here. Strange.

Reminder to self: go to Fontlover, then to Core and download cute fonts!

Tea is excessively good.

Guess what made me mad? Shallow Hal being sold out last night when me and Arney tried to see it! I was so looking forward to just laugh and laugh with Jack Black, but nooooooo.......

Real World is really getting skahnkay! Does anyone else watch that show? Is Jisela just not -- full of loving? I feel bad for Malik. He really does seem to like her... I wish I got MTV better! It's so fuzzy--but I guess it's better than not getting it at all. *sigh*

The MIRA trip has got to be one of the more exciting events in my life recently. Goll-EE. I'll have to talk about it later. I don't want to right now. I bet Mels has written about it though.

Colorgenics:

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience, and perhaps what is even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

At this time you "need to be needed" and again you "need to need". You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have that belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.

Everyone has to compromise at times.. and circumstances are such, that at this time you are feeling the need to do just that. Put all of your hopes on the back burner and let matters flow...for a time...forgo some of the things you want. The good times are around the corner.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you .. that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you - they simply flow off you as water flows of a ducks back... You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can "Let your hair down" and share your hopes, dreams and high standards... You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

Whatever you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong and you are now quite convinced that there is little point of formulating new objectives and it is this belief that has resulted in the stress and anxiety. You would like to be able to communicate with other people who think as you do. At this time there seems to be no-one on the horizon nor is there any prospect of meeting anyone in the immediate future. But it must be said that you are really a "trier" and indications are that you will .... as indeed you have in the past "bounce back".

Wow yesterday's ElimiDate was sluttay! It was in Vegas (Sin City) and here are the jobs of the four girls: exotic dancer, model, student, and waitress. Yup. Guess who he chose? The student. The exotic dancer made it to the last round, but me and Ayesha have a theory that the guy always picks the girl who acts not too slutty.

Once again, more search terms used to find luverly.org:

• 6'0 blonde bombshells
  
• Bulging breasts
  
• renaissance festival pictures cleavage
  
• gwyneth paltrow skinny fat lopez
  

There were a lot more, but I don't want to put em all up...

I apologize to any who might have been offended by my profanity. But too bad--that's how I feel. And then today Becksta starts telling me about her and ACF (A Certain F***er)'s IM convo, in which he was victimizing himself. What the hell?! Oh sure, you're certainly the wronged one here--not!

Okay, so here's all that happened:

After 1st hour: I find out I haven't made it to Model UN, not even onto the alternate list. I wonder why, but don't really mind. I was expecting it.

Before 5th hour: I walk Supi to her Modern Euro, and stay to chat with friends in there. Then someone asks me if I made Model UN. I say no. Then I start talking to Laura and in the corner of my eye I see a certain f***er cheering. So pretend not to see but get SUPER PISSED!

5th hour: Me and Ayesha rip on A Certain F***er all hour long. It was very satisfying.

YOu know what? Words aren't enough to describe a certain person whom I truly loathe. Now I have no scruples whatsoever in trashing him with my mom. I did yesterday, but now I don't at all. So F*** HIM.

Hee hee--for art I am doing a CD cover.. featuring my little sister! She wanted her 'pop star' name to be Gwen Lumiere (pronounced Loo-me-a), but I think Gwen Ze looks cooler. What do you all think? Her smash single is going to be 'Don't Break It'... This is so much fun! I love art!

You know what is a no win situation? You wash your hair at night--it gets all funky shaped but you get to wake up later. You wash your hair in the morning--you have less time to style hair but it doesn't get funky but you have to wake up 30 minutes earlier. What do you do? Especially if you have longer than shoulder length hair!

Thanks to Mario for the nice compliments.. hey right back atcha! ^-^

Jesus Christ. It takes like the whole hour to get to editing my blog.. I mean, yeah. I get into my math class (I seem doomed to finding bad news in math class) and then it's 9-11 all over again. Almost.

I was supposed to have a counselor's appt today but no.. she's busy again. She's done this twice to me already! I need to talk to her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gosh, I had more to say.

One last plug for my personal site: Pixillated. I'm done now.

Okay, maybe I'm just going to sound like a bitch here (or I'm really going to make sense), but why do most of the 'goth' people at our school wear black? It's like, you're trying to be non conformist, but you're conforming to each other. Why not just wear some colors that will actually make you look good, so you can feel better about yourself? End of bitchiness (or sensefulness).

Doesn't it ever make you sad when you and a friend stop correspondence? But I guess that's the way it is.

Why do people keep sending me blank forms? Okay, when you press the button that says 'play', it means that it sends it to me. Yes way.

So me and Molly wanted to go see Life as a House (with Hayden Christensen!), but the movie wasn't working!! How can it not work? Did the film company send a bad copy of it?? Or what? I was really mad cause I was looking forward to it. But then we just sat in Barnes and Noble which was great too. Does anybody else here love B&N or is it just me? I just love sitting in those big comfy chairs and flipping through mags, or finishing a book. Ahhh. I can just see myself ten years from now sitting in a B&N in New York or something. ^-^

I watched the last hour of Philadelphia today and just bawled my eyes out. Really. Sobbing, runny nose, the whole shabang. It's such a sad movie. Y'all really should see it. Tom Hanks is amazing in it. And Antonio Banderas is hot.

I was calling you, but you didn't pick up. What the hell?

I'm so shafted all the time!!! Me and Melanie! All THE TIME!! It's not even fair. We're going to start a clique. How many would join?

Quartet practice in 18 minutes. I want to watch the musical Buffy. Dilemma!

I always see like the last 10 seconds of the Star Wars 2 trailer. I want to watch the whole thing. Hayden Christensen is hot! I used to watch him on Higher Ground (a show that was canceled from Fox Family)... and now he's in Star Wars 2. Yummmmm.

For those wondering where 'illuxionarie' came from... I was playing around with the word 'illusionary' and to make it look prettier changed it until it became as you see it up there.

Molly Osborn is a bitch!

ElimiDate took place in Minnesota again today! Yay! I don't know where the hell it was, but the girl was pretty. And the four guys.. um.. one looked like Seann William Scott... another was actually cute. I thought at least. I don't know what she was thinking when she eliminated him. She was in the National Guard and was looking for a manly man man I guess. I go more for the intellectuals.

My weekend was so.. boring. But nice. Lovely weather.

Round 2 of Hungs vs. Abcejos: 1 set all. Me and Michelle won the first set 6-4, then they came back to win the second set 6-3. What can I say? It was getting dark. And cold.

New blog layout coming soon! Yay. Rejoice.

My inner diva is Madonna.

BTW, interestingly enough, people get to luverly by using these search terms:

• F--- my ass andy roddick
  
• homecoming slippers
  
• japanese men giving orchids
  
• kim clijsters f---
  
• my aunt sucks me off
  

Amongst many others of course.

I am such a naughty person. Bad Christine.

Went trick or treating on Halloween. It was amazingly great. ^-^ V. Stress free and excessively fun. God, ayesha and I looked absolutely hideous. At least, I did. She actually looked kinda cool--very exotic w/ golden contacts. Whereas I just looked plain freakay. Silver wig over my side ponytail (remember the 80s??); multi-layered clothing with allusions to Little House on the Prarie, shagadelic 70s, Gap, and such; and lots and lots of eyeliner. Arney dressed as a Texas ganasta which nobody understood. They'd all be like "You girls look beautiful--and your escort looks nice too." Nobody got the symbolism of his outfit: ski cap, sunglasses, fingertip less gloves, denim shirt w/ only top button buttoned, and baggy jeans. I didn't really either *gasp*, but he said that he probably would have been shot had he been so attired in Texas. Hahaha. Not that it's funny he would have been shot, but that in Minnesota he can just go around and people are entirely clueless.

Aah! What if Alice and Rufus go out? Me and Molly have a lot of scheming to do. Too bad she's in DC now.