Immanuel has every appearance of being sensitive, funny with a dry sense of humor, intelligent (though not scarily so), and attractive (in my eyes at least). I've talked to him before (indeed, there was a short period of time last year, or two years ago, where I talked to him nearly every day, then I was stupid and stopped), but recently nil, nada, zilch. He's in a couple of my classes and it's hard, knowing that if only he sat near me, I would certainly overcome my shyness/stupidity/awkwardness and talk to him, make some sort of inconsequential remark that would return us to the former camraderie. But I don't sit anywhere near him in the classes I have with him.

Sometimes I wonder if anyone would care if I was gone, flitted out of their lives. Would there be a difference? I almost wish I could be in It's a Wonderful Life and see how the world would be without me. I really don't think there'd be much changed.

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