11 July 2003
So I leave tomorrow morning for NY. 7 A.M. bright and early, which means that I will have to get up at 5.
I couldn't sleep at all last night. Maybe ten or twenty minutes. An hour, tops. I kept tossing and turning. And I still don't know why. There are so many things it could have been. Worrying about placement exams. Worrying about being the hick girl in the strange big city. Worrying about finding friends like the ones I have here, who'll stick by me through thick and thin (thin being the most important times, of course, the times that try relationships).
Conversely, while I worry, I am also looking forward to so much. I look forward to the Florence trip that NYU Presidential Scholars get to take in January. I look forward to joining the staff of the newspaper and meeting new people (having been on the high school paper, I know we are a strange but interesting bunch). I look forward to deciding what I want to do with my life, with learning in classes that I actually want to take. I look forward to being in New York. I mean, it's New York!
But enough sentimental babbling. Driving in the rain/cloudy day with Kascade playing in the background is so lovely. Good music does that... heightens the beauty of things around you. As does being with people you love.
I couldn't sleep at all last night. Maybe ten or twenty minutes. An hour, tops. I kept tossing and turning. And I still don't know why. There are so many things it could have been. Worrying about placement exams. Worrying about being the hick girl in the strange big city. Worrying about finding friends like the ones I have here, who'll stick by me through thick and thin (thin being the most important times, of course, the times that try relationships).
Conversely, while I worry, I am also looking forward to so much. I look forward to the Florence trip that NYU Presidential Scholars get to take in January. I look forward to joining the staff of the newspaper and meeting new people (having been on the high school paper, I know we are a strange but interesting bunch). I look forward to deciding what I want to do with my life, with learning in classes that I actually want to take. I look forward to being in New York. I mean, it's New York!
But enough sentimental babbling. Driving in the rain/cloudy day with Kascade playing in the background is so lovely. Good music does that... heightens the beauty of things around you. As does being with people you love.