I realize that I'm petty.

Yesterday was the greatest day ever--I listened to Amelie, people watched as I drove around, went to the library, got new books to read (favorite thing ever!), talked to Jeff for the first time in a while (man Jeff, we have GOT to get longer lasting batteries), saw Laura for the first time in a while too... and... briefly glimpsed a certain cutie. Ah, sigh. Summer fling?

Highly unlikely, as last year, he didn't seem to know what to do around me. I think I frightened him. Well, I am how I am.

We'll see.

God, I'm such a sap.

I miss you.

I miss the way you used to grab me from behind and spin me around so that I felt weightless.

I miss the way you used to surprise me with little gifts.

Most of all, I just miss you on those days where everything flowed so freely.

My weekend?

I didn't see much of school friends--but babysat with Justine and Brian for our Chinese church. Kids can be sooo adorable, especially when you're like, "Come give me a hug!" and they aren't too old to be like huh, yeah right, and not too young so that they don't understand what you're saying.

Went to the Cities to get more psych research. This entire weekend was pretty much spent working on psych. Yesterday I managed to go shopping and to Julia's open house, which was fun and had muchas vegetarian food. But other than that, I worked on my paper, which is about 8 pages long only.

I forsee a looong night tonight. Rawr. I will just be so glad when this is done with. And maybe... mayyyybe.. this weekend Em and I can go up to a cabin. I believe I'll only have two finals. Very very very very much hopefully not three.

What else happened? That's about it. I was productive--gasp!

Oh, and a cute boy remembered who I was from two years ago!

Last night was great. Last day time was not as much.

The day dawned sunny, then progressively got cloudier and cloudier. This matched my mood. By the time I got home early, I was despairing, restless, wanting to run through a meadow or rent a cabin and sit by a lake in solitude. I think it's about that time again, where I ring in some changes. I even called an archery place and I think I'm going to do me some archery. I was so close to calling a friend to come along, but I didn't. Sometimes, there are things you need to do by yourself.

The night was better. I made dinner, which turned out tasting much better than last night's efforts of soggy, bland mushroom-carrot-zucchini. Then I had to get out of the house (I really love this driving thing, even though my car is a total gas guzzler :(), so I decided to buy some open house presents. Went to mall, but decided everything there was so overdone and overpriced as well. Bought myself Glamour mag and Princess-In-Waiting (yes, I read ya books. sue me.). Then had brainstorm! Go to crafts store!

So I went and found great stuff. I made Liz a vase, sort of. The vase is a bud vase, blue, but I added beaded wire around it so it looks so funky cool. I bought Julia oil pastels and watercolors since she's an artsy type. I also bought some flip-flops, which will probably be given to Supi, but it's still iffy. And.... this is the best part... a soap making kit!

After I got home, I followed the instructions and made some half tie dye, half purple soap with a flower in the center. I'll try to get a picture up of how cool it looks. I am sooo going to give soap as a gift from now on. And when people hear my name, they'll be like, "Oh, Christine! The girl who makes cool soap!"

Okay, probably not. But still, I love being crafty.

Valleyfair was awful at first. Then it got much much better.

Right when we get there, we all go on Wild Thing (after buying ponchos and figuring out that this rain sucks ass). Then we go get a locker to put our stuff in. Then we eat lunch. Then we try to go on Excalibur, except it's closed!!!! Then Annatina and I went to the pizza place and Brent got us a whole paper towel roll. I wrapped my feet in it and was finally dry and happy. Boys came and we played Egyptian Ratscrew (Arney won) and Presidents (I started off Pres., then after 2 terms, Arney took over. But not to fear! I gained control after three of his terms). I had a hell raisin good time. Sean is a pretty funny guy. Not worth the $27 though.

Oh well. GAHHHH, so much work to do.

Had my Open House. Just reaffirmed my hate for small talk and endless smiling.

But it sure was worth it. Gots me some great presents and a stash of money. I can't wait to be let loose on New York City. Watch out, is all I can say.

GAhhhh. I HATE being indecisive. But it's just so late now, there's no point, is there?

Just had to post this link. You can now use IM for those burning questions about religion.

Oh Melanie Baker
You're a great caker
Who laughs a ton
And loves lil Ron

Okay, I give up on making a poem. But Mels, you are such a great person. I can't even begin to emphasize that enough--warm-hearted, there for everyone when they're in need, and a scream! This is why you have so many friends that love you. Happy 18th Birthday Mels!!!!

Agh, I've been cheated. I hate the feeling you get when that happens. I can still reverse it I think, but I don't know if I have the courage.

You see, our school issues a certain amount of parking permits. I wanted to get one. So I asked the guy in charge of them, Mr. Hate-em (not really his name of course), and at first he said, no, we're done giving out permits. But I pressed a little more, and he said if I brought in $20 tomorrow, he could see what he could do.

So I do this morning, having somewhat had to argue for the money because my parents were like, there are only 18 days left in school! He is overcharging you!

Then I find out I can only get the church lot, which is like 70 feet away from the entrance to the school. And now I really think that that was a baddddd choice. I want a refund.

Drove around town today in "my" blue Toyota van (of which I now have my own key).

I read another old story of mine titled, "Prince Ring-A-Ling and Rosebud's Heart," which was very interesting to say the least. There are hints of dirty mind-ness (this in a fifth grader!), but so vague where you can't be quite sure.

I also found an old copy of flower's meanings. I would like to give a forget-me-not to B., a lily of the valley to A., and a bluebell to M.

It's Friday, but it's dreary out, so really it's a Monday.

He's started talking to me again. It was okay today, but who knows? Hopefully it'll continue in this vein.

I have my license back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last night, went out with Jeff, Mel, and Ayesh to the mall (Express is having a good sale, J, damn), Silver Lake (where we played like little kids for what might be the last time we all hang out together before graduation), and Wal Mart (where I bought Inventing the Abbots and the Matchmaker).

It was a lovely night, laughing all along.

Argh, why are my links not working?

Will someone check to see if they are... HERE? Our school server caches like crazy, goddamnit.

About A Boy was quite good, but there were some awkward moments, and moments where I was like, "What? What just happened there?" But all in all, recommended. Yes.

Made salsa yesterday too. Did NOT turn out well. Tomatoes weren't red enough, and it all turned mushy.

Friendships are tricky things.

Just saw X2: X-Men United. Whoo, sweet movie, but I think it stretched the emotions too far. Far too much excitement. But good, damn good.

What sort of superpower would you want? I would want to teleport. Or be telekinetic.

Which brings me to another point I wanted to make tonight. Jean Grey is telekinetic. I remember I took an online test ages ago that said I was like her. So I mentioned it while me and friends were watching X-Men, and Arney says I couldn't be her, or some such thing. He says, instead, that I would be like Jubilee. I don't doubt it, because generally Arney has a good sense of who I am.

But it makes me sad that I'll never be a Jean Grey or for that matter, a Yuna (from FF10). You know? They are the beautiful, calm, graceful. Where I am cute, energetic, clumsy. Actually, I'm really not that energetic, but rather, impatient, which looks like energy.

I'll never be the beautiful one everyone wants. Would I really want that though?

It's May! Hurrah. And sunny outside. And no school tomorrow.

Why am I sad then?

I think it's because I can already see what the future will be like, and even though it shouldn't hurt, it still does.

Also, Ayesha has (at this moment) decided to go with her head.

Which I understand, but wish I didn't.