09 February 2004
Ok, for those of you who caught my blog between last night and this morning, I did regret it. But on second third thought, I want to be able to look back on both the bad times as well as the good. I lost the post, from last night. But I'm going to summarise what I remember:
1) Am lonely
2) Longing for Minnesota
3) Stress about homework
4) Worry about spending too much money
5) Thought about trying to be less materialistic
6) Guilt over not remembering to do birthday things for Laura and Sarah
7) Wishing more friends would call, but also musing on how wasn't super close with people
That's what I can recall.
I honestly feel like I, whether unconsciously or not, reject people and push them away. I was reminded of this when a friend from Florence, Kate, invited me to watch Alias with her on Sunday, and I couldn't because I always watch with my floor. She replied, "Well, don't whine to me about not getting invited because you always turn me down!" or something to that effect, because previously, I had been writing notes with her, telling her she ought to have called me this weekend. And as I thought back, I realized it was true. However, most of the stuff she asks me to do, like clubbing, are things I don't care to do on a normal basis. So does this show that in order to have friends you have to want to do anything/everything?
1) Am lonely
2) Longing for Minnesota
3) Stress about homework
4) Worry about spending too much money
5) Thought about trying to be less materialistic
6) Guilt over not remembering to do birthday things for Laura and Sarah
7) Wishing more friends would call, but also musing on how wasn't super close with people
That's what I can recall.
I honestly feel like I, whether unconsciously or not, reject people and push them away. I was reminded of this when a friend from Florence, Kate, invited me to watch Alias with her on Sunday, and I couldn't because I always watch with my floor. She replied, "Well, don't whine to me about not getting invited because you always turn me down!" or something to that effect, because previously, I had been writing notes with her, telling her she ought to have called me this weekend. And as I thought back, I realized it was true. However, most of the stuff she asks me to do, like clubbing, are things I don't care to do on a normal basis. So does this show that in order to have friends you have to want to do anything/everything?