22 May 2004
Aghhhhh I don't want to go back no no no no.
Here in Minnesota, I can float along happily with the people I've been friends with for years without real thought to my actions or words, because they know me well enough to let things pass, or to respond without condescension. Back in New York, the people I know are hardly the same--I rarely feel comfortable enough to be free with myself. One does tire so of being judged all the time.
Besides, the weather in New York is muggy apparently right now and who wants to go from this lovely chill weather where one can wear flannel pajamas to mugginess and the chill of air conditioning?
Ah well. I will adapt as need be. And really, I have more resources than I give myself credit for sometimes.
Here in Minnesota, I can float along happily with the people I've been friends with for years without real thought to my actions or words, because they know me well enough to let things pass, or to respond without condescension. Back in New York, the people I know are hardly the same--I rarely feel comfortable enough to be free with myself. One does tire so of being judged all the time.
Besides, the weather in New York is muggy apparently right now and who wants to go from this lovely chill weather where one can wear flannel pajamas to mugginess and the chill of air conditioning?
Ah well. I will adapt as need be. And really, I have more resources than I give myself credit for sometimes.
I leave Tuesday morning, so I'll still be here.. yay! You and Mel are getting home around the same time I think.. unfortunately I've already promised my family I'd go to a potluck with them tonight, but maybe later tonight? 10ish?
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