11 June 2004
Why is it so difficult to find a non-tedious person?
I feel as though with every year I am finding it harder and harder to either be in new relationships or maintain old ones, because my eye is ever more critical of people and their faults. One person, for example, could be really intelligent, but repeat things over and over--which I cannot abide. Another could be nearly perfect: always interesting, funny, laughs at your jokes, crazy in the right way, but also be rather dodgy and uncommunicative about certain things that matter.
Of course, I realize I am not perfect--far from it, indeed. I suppose I am just lamenting the difficulty in finding the perfect fit, a fit that I pretty much had secured in high school. And now it feels like starting from scratch.
Heh. I speak as though I'm starting my freshman year, when in reality, I'm starting my sophomore with six other girls who hold great potential to being perfect fits.
I suppose I need to stop being so critical, but it's hard in a society that is extremely judgmental because of free speech.
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Also. I have lots of big bug bites. Any home treatments I should try? I've already tried cortisone, to minimal effect. Thanks!
I feel as though with every year I am finding it harder and harder to either be in new relationships or maintain old ones, because my eye is ever more critical of people and their faults. One person, for example, could be really intelligent, but repeat things over and over--which I cannot abide. Another could be nearly perfect: always interesting, funny, laughs at your jokes, crazy in the right way, but also be rather dodgy and uncommunicative about certain things that matter.
Of course, I realize I am not perfect--far from it, indeed. I suppose I am just lamenting the difficulty in finding the perfect fit, a fit that I pretty much had secured in high school. And now it feels like starting from scratch.
Heh. I speak as though I'm starting my freshman year, when in reality, I'm starting my sophomore with six other girls who hold great potential to being perfect fits.
I suppose I need to stop being so critical, but it's hard in a society that is extremely judgmental because of free speech.
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Also. I have lots of big bug bites. Any home treatments I should try? I've already tried cortisone, to minimal effect. Thanks!
I understand what you mean about relationships in general. When I was at UCF for a semester, I found it difficult to establish actual relationships with people that went beyond awkward small talk or the highly impersonal "hello, how are you? good? glad to hear. see you later" number. People I came across seemed less open to the idea of making new friends. Maybe it was me or maybe they didn't want to get to know me. I have no clue. And now I'm not so sure what I'm rambling about. Haha. But I hope you find your fit. I know it would make college life all the more fun, right? :)
Yes I've noticed that too--people are much more prone to the superficial, and sticking to their own little groups. Heck, I do it too. I really ought to change that about myself. But I mean, I have found quite a few fits. I suppose I'm being melodramatic, but it just is rather lonely in the summertime. Is that why you left UCF?
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