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29 February 2004

I have to share why I love Disney's Pocahontas so much (hideous errors in Native American representation notwithstanding):

1. I watched this for the first time in the fifth grade. In the fifth grade, I had a crush on a certain boy, who was the teeniest bit Native American. Somehow, in my mind, this connected to Pocahontas. Oh yes, and I fancied he had a chin like John Smith's. I also fancied myself in the role of Pocahontas, this being confirmed one day during recess when we girls had a discussion. Someone put forth my name as Pocahontas, and I, of course, said no, I think _____ is more like her. We had already established my certain crush as John Smith, you see, and I didn't want to be obvious. But I hugged that first suggestion to myself and have remembered it ever since. Therefore, watching it reminds me of that time when crushes were so innocent and all I ever hoped for was an admission of love.

2. Pocahontas is one of the only Disney "Princesses" who rescues the man instead of the other way around, and I find I like that. I think I'm naturally one who will take over and lead when no one stronger or willing to be dominating is present, so I relate well to that. Plus, John Smith is still ever so masculine without being a pushy bore, cause he saves Pocahontas's father from being shot.

3. I really really love "Colors of the Wind." Back in fifth grade, I bought both the piano and violin scores so I could play the songs. Oh, and I love the love song, "If I Never Knew You." Beautiful melancholia.

4. I've always had a fascination with Native American culture so I thought any sort of exposure offered was good. And the ending moral message was quite good... we're all savages underneath, and so on, and so forth.

5. The themes of saving the environment and not imposing our will on nature!

To be continued as I think of more reasons.

BTW: current correct Oscar predictions-- 4/7 already presented, as of this time. Predicted correctly for supporting actor and actress. Then again, they were very predictable. I'm waiting for the big upset... best not be in best picture!

Fashion report to come.

Oh geez, I forgot the entire reason why I was posting..

Has anyone else noticed the frightening similarity in appearance of Donald Trump and Melania Knauss? Neither ever smile in photos, have the same sort of squinting eye look... Take a look here; the photographs of them start at the bottom of that page.

Oscars tonight!!!!!

Shall I bore you all with my predictions? Yes, I think I shall.

Best Actor: I most certainly hope it is Bill Murray, but unfortunately, I think it'll go to Sean Penn for Mystic River.

Best Supporting Actor: Tim Robbins ought to take this one easily.

Best Actress: Charlize Theron, though who knows? There've been rumours of an upset...

Best Supporting Actress: It would be ever so interesting if Shohreh Aghdashloo won, but according to convention, I believe it'll be Renee Zellweger, she of Cold Mountain fame.

Best Director and Best Picture: Lord of the Rings, Lord of the Rings, Lord of the Rings. I am so hoping the Academy won't be so stuck in their rut as to not award one of the biggest film events since Star Wars.

So excited to see what everyone'll be wearing as well..

I am really really really really really looking forward to Bride and Prejudice, the newest movie from the director of Bend it Like Beckham. It stars Martin Henderson as Mr. Darcy, a very interesting choice--we'll see how it pans out. Apparently Alexis Bledel is in it too? Um, yeah, that's what I thought too.

Ah yes, have budgeted self for next month, so hopefully will be able to rein in spending.

28 February 2004

Arghhhhhhhhh....

Living in New York is awesome because there is so much to do, but at the same time, all the awesome events cost MONEY. Admittedly, my parents have never told me to worry, really, except that I have it ingrained in me to be somewhat thrifty from my dad and to spend money on what I want from my mother, which combines to become me: a spender who experiences excessive guilt after spending. Oh goodness, and have I been spending a lot of money!

There is one person who owes me a lot of money, though, so I'm thinking I should ask her for it. But on the other hand, I don't feel like I NEED the money, and therefore, I shouldn't ask for it, because I have no urgent need. But I still ought to ask for it, right?

Okay, this is a pretty pointless entry. I just did some accounting, so I'm feeling guilty. But my dad did compliment me on my thriftiness, so I suppose I'm okay. I saw this beautiful coat today, though, at United Colors and I really really wanted to buy it. It cost $100 or so. But I didn't buy it.

So I rewarded myself with a Godiva chocolate bar.

Listening to DJ Dangermouse's Grey Album. All in all, pretty sweet. You ought to try and find a copy before the recording companies do their bitch thing and get it taken down.

Have a ton of books from the library to read through, so I'm very happy. I suppose it's good that I'm more of an indoor person, cause otherwise I would be clubbing and drinking all the time, which would cost even more moolah.

Went to Sleeping Beauty, and I looooved it. Didn't feel sleepy, not once. I loved it because I knew the story. I know the story because my dad bought me the cd/book set when I was younger and I remember reading through it and listening to the music. So familiarity breeds heart-ness.

Sometimes I feel like I repeat myself on here. But I suppose I echo what I write in my personal journal, so.. if you notice that I do repeat, well, good for you.

Shopped today at South Street Seaport, which made me feel like I was in Seattle/Sydney hybrid. It was impeccably clean with high glassy new buildings (very Sydney-ish) and we faced the ocean and smelled fish (very Seattle). Beautiful. And I loved feeling like I wasn't in New York.

Oooh, and yesterday I got to watch the final dress rehearsal of Don Giovanni at the Met, which was sooooo amazing. It's a new production there, so we were among the first to see it. And we had seats in the Grand Parterre, which are the best seats in the house. I really love Don Giovanni as well, as Mozart is a genius and it was actually funny! I missed the last half because I had a ton of errands to run, but from what I saw... it's a winner!

Time to order me some dinner.

27 February 2004

Little side note: happy 6 mo., darling...

25 February 2004

Yayayayayayayayayayayayyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

I'm SOOOO happy!!!!!!!!!

Well of Lost Plots is at Strand Books just for ME!!!!!! I got the voicemail just now!

And I'm going to the ballet Sleeping Beauty tomorrow!

Life is gooood.

23 February 2004

Yay! Steph is up and going again!

Saw last episode of SATC. Tear! Good ending though. Don't know quite what I think of it yet, but happy is as happy does.

Finished another two romances. Yes, you know me and my trashy romances. Except some of them are actually quite good. Suzanne Enoch's London's Perfect Scoundrel is the one I finished mere minutes ago, and I have to say, it was well-written, if not conventional.

Writing is a double edged sword; such rapture when I manage to get the right words down, and such despair when I cannot.

Off to study for Francais.

22 February 2004

I spent one long satisfying day yesterday with Suzanne, whom I haven't hung out with in a while.

We rode on up to Central Park, as the weather was positively spring like. Walked around, cooed over babies and dogs, watched for tourists, and made admiring remarks. Then we decided to go to the zoo, which is an activity that I always enjoy and am melancholy about at the same time. It was wonderful. I enjoyed the tropics are the most, I think. Also the penguins.

Then back to my dorm we went, ready to watch AbFab, as we had borrowed the first two seasons from St. Marks Video. Read fashion mags. Watched SNL.

All in all, lovely.

Oh yes, just read Summers at Castle Auburn by Sharon Shinn and it slid by so pleasantly; I couldn't put it down at all. So many good books to read from the library!

Been writing too.

Going to watch SATC's farewell episode tonight, if all goes well. So sad to lose it.

19 February 2004

I think I am in danger of stereotyping Minnesota in my mind.

In my mind, Minnesota is the land where strangers smile at you, where things are described as "rustic" and "quaint," and where life goes at a slower pace.

While each of these have some ring of truth to them, they are definitely not facts. Strangers do not necessarily smile at you, and there are the same amount of rude people as there are everywhere else. As for "rustic" and "quaint"--well, certain parts are both, but for the most part, people are just as cutting-edge as are people found all over America. Life goes at the same pace as well.

Nostalgia colors things and distorts them... I love New York, but I miss Minnesota.

18 February 2004

Weird how radio voices in New York are the same as in Minnesota. The same annoying accent, inflections, etc. Just an observation.

Finished The Blue Sword, finally. Oh, and was it good. It was so good that I skipped two classes just to finish it. It takes some getting into, but once you get in, it's hard as diamonds to get out. The ending was lovely, much better than The Hero and the Crown. I like it when things have closure.

Had a whole paragraph about something great that happened today. But I don't know how much I can say about it, so it'll have to remain mysterious until I find out the conclusion myself.

Life is going swimmingly.

17 February 2004

So much good media input lately.

Stayed up until 3 reading I Capture the Castle by Dodie Smith. Then realized needed sleep so saved last bit for morning. Finished it in class. Oh, what an ending! I can't say anything; I don't want to spoil a bit of the plot. Read it! It inspired me to write in my journal today, and I've written at least 5 pages. It felt good.

Just watched Circle of Friends which is circa 1995 and stars Chris O'Donnell and Minnie Driver before they were bigger names. Oh, lovely, lovely story that had me gasping, groaning, and sighing all at the computer. I'm sure my roomie thought I was daft, making all those horrified and creeped out noises. Ah, she puts up with a lot.

Still loving Nina Simone's "Feelin' Good (Joe Clausell remix)."

16 February 2004

QUEER EYE PARTY PHOTOS UP

You can check them out HERE.

Enjoy!

15 February 2004

Arney left today, and I did some Chinatown shopping. Bought a Prada purse, spinach, instant noodles, and soymilk. Now I'm craving this bag! So cute. So out of my price range.

What else? Not much. Just very happy.

Happy Belated Valentine's Day!!!!!!

Hope you all had a lovely day yesterday, despite your stance on V-Day.

Love, me.

14 February 2004

Oh and BTW, forgot to mention that apparently Lindsay Lohan was there... check it out here. I hope the link works. And.. Kate saw a woman standing on the first tier balcony's shadowy corner who looked like Paris Hilton. We both strained our eyes to see her clearly--she had the platinum blonde hair, tan skin, and figure of Paris, but in the end, I don't think it was her.

Okay, now I'm done.

OH MY GOSH!

Last night was INCREDIBLE. INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, I'll give you a play by play of the events.

I won the tickets. I ask Kate to go with me, and then she looks at the website and sees that it's supposed to be a 21+ party. Much frantic back and forth ensued, during which it seemed like the whole thing was going to be improbable. But after I called the club and confirmed it was for 18+, we were set. So I got gussied up and met Kate. We took a cab up the ten blocks and found a long line. We couldn't tell if it was for the Queer Eye party or not, so we asked some random people and they said it was. We wait about twenty minutes, get to the front, only to be told we were in the wrong line.

They directed us to the side entrance, where there was a table and--get this--a red carpet. I coolly tell them I'm on the list, they check my name, and we get two wristbands. Hee hee, I got to walk on the red carpet in front of a lot of photographers. Granted, none of them took pictures, but still! Pretty nifty.

We get inside, where it's not too crowded yet and stake out a spot. Nothing happened for a good hour and half, except for lots of body-booming music and people watching. Many many gay men were there. Kate and I stood next to a huge group of them, and we thought it was unusual that an older looking woman was with them. Later on, Kate heard one of the men say to another, "She has no gaydar whatsoever," referring to the older woman. We thought that was hilarious.

Finally, some guy announced the Fab Five, who were up on the second tier balcony. They did their waving thing and announced Simone Denny, who sang the Queer Eye theme song. She's a pretty damn good performer. After that, there was a space of about ten minutes where they adjusted stuff for Kylie. And then... and then!

The Fab Five came on stage and did a speech, thanking us for coming, and then announcing--Kylie Minogue!!!

The music started, the stage became blue lit, and out she came with her dancers! Her first song was "Come Into My World," one of my favorites. She was absolutely beautiful in person, tiny and flawless--exactly like the photographs of her. Next was "Red Blooded Woman," her new song which I also love. Really, I love all her songs I've heard. Then she said, "Now we're going to do a little old school," or something like that and she did "Locomotion"! Then was Kate's favorite, "Can't Get You Out of My Head." Then "Slow," which was beautiful, and last of all, "Love at First Sight," which she did with actual musical instruments instead of electronic. It sounded really awesome. All along, everyone was screaming "Kylie!" and singing along to the music, which was great. At the end, she gave a little speech, cause apparently she's never performed in New York, so I got to be one of the first New Yorkers to see her! Everyone kept screaming and she was laughing, telling us to shush. And she was sweet, because she acknowledged her band and dancers and told us to applaud for them. Her speaking voice is high, and thin with the Australian accent, which surprised me because her singing voice was lower. She went off stage then, and it was over.

Kate and I pushed our way out, and incidentally, got caught up with a lesbian couple. Hrm, observation: we saw two couples where one was much less attractive than the other, and older as well. This was one of them, and the uglier one wouldn't let go of her woman so Kate and I had to let go hands to let them pass.

Just a little anecdote. So we got our coats, and... a gift bag!!!!!

That's right, on top of everything else, we got a giftbag filled with at least $125 worth of goodies. Definitely not on par with the stars, but hey, it was pretty damn good for me, since I didn't expect anything. What was in the bag: Vera Wang for Men, Fekkai for Men shampoo, huge Pier 1 candle, Crest Whitestrips, earrings, change purse, Queer Eye theme song single, 3 months of RealRhapsody service, Diesel Spring-Summer '04 collection DVD, toothbrush, mirror, Dentyne Ice, and a cellphone magnet.

Damn straight. And all of this for the low price of: FREE.

Le sigh. Now that I'm done bragging, I'm going to go and watch me some Friends.

13 February 2004

Anyone seen the Enrique/Kelis "Not in Love" video? What is up with the non-get-togetherness of Enrique and Kelis?

So, I've won a pair of tickets to the Queer Eye CD release party tonight, and apparently Kylie Minogue is performing!! But the dilemma is twofold: 1) I'm not 21. 2) Arney's coming today and he isn't a club type (I'm not either, except for the occasional need to dance my cares away). And I'd like to go with someone who is 21 because then I'll probably get in easier, I think. I'll talk it over with Arney and see what he thinks.

Things are better now, because have reconnected with certain friend. And last night, a group of us from the floor went to dinner at The Water Club, which was delicious and stuffing! Had calamari, crispy cod with leeks, and sorbet. The sorbet was really delicious, mixed berry with fresh blueberries and strawberries.

When we got back, we watched Friends. Gosh, Phoebe's wedding dress was GORGEOUS. Makes me want a pale lavender gown for my wedding...

12 February 2004

Note: changed the Kylie song to "Chocolate". Accidentally typed wrong song out.

10 February 2004

Ooh, really looking forward to King Arthur, A Cinderella Story, and Ella Enchanted (view trailers)... Ella Enchanted looks as though it isn't going to be anything like the book. But it looks fun nonetheless. I had originally thought it would be sacrilege, as I had read about how there was going to be a talking book and a spunky elf, but after reading Meg Cabot's blog, I changed my mind.

And I see you laughing at me for Cinderella Story... so I'm a teenybopper movie sucker, what're you going to do? Yeah, that's what I thought.

Kylie Minogue's "Chocolate" on her new CD is perfectly dreamy. You can listen to it here. I don't know how long that link will work, so hurry on over there!

Currently reading three books. Robin McKinley's The Blue Sword (yep, still working on it), Rose Tremain's Music & Silence, and Indu Sundaresan's The Twentieth Wife. Finished Patrick Dennis's Auntie Mame, which was a delightful book. Highly recommend it. The relationship between Patrick and Auntie Mame is reminiscent of Wooster and Jeeves, so any fans of P.G. Wodehouse ought to check it out.

UPN's Next Top Model is on tonight! Yay!

The weather was gorgeous today, sunny and spring-like. Lifted my entire mood up. Sun reminded me to look around, and found myself examining my surroundings with new, fascinated eyes. Washington Square Park was ever so lively today, and the arch will soon be opening up again!

This is late in coming, but hurrah for Massachusetts and their Supreme Court's decision! I don't understand the furor over gay marriage. I honestly don't. Maybe someone who is level headed and anti gay marriage can pop me an e-mail? I'd like to hear your position.

Gay people pay their taxes like everyone else, and if they choose to marry, I don't see the problem. All I hear from the conservatives who oppose gay marriage is that "The family, built on the union of male and female, is the foundation of society" (Time magazine, Feb. 16, page 59). Okay, so from what I'm understanding in that quote is that they are afraid that there will be no more male-female relationships if gay marriage is approved? Or something to that extent? What a silly argument. First, gay relationships have been accepted for a while now, and I don't see any decrease in the human population and in heterosexual relations. In fact, I'm pretty sure that our world population is growing. Second, of course, the union of male and female is the foundation of society, but that has absolutely nothing to do with whether gay marriage ought to be legalized. It's not as though we are de-sanctifying marriage by allowing gays to participate. Third, marriage these days is such a sham, with a 50-60% divorce rate, that I don't see it as being all that holy.

I think I've covered most of my ranting there. So, I'd like to understand the anti gay marriage position. Level headed person e-mail me.

09 February 2004

Ok, for those of you who caught my blog between last night and this morning, I did regret it. But on second third thought, I want to be able to look back on both the bad times as well as the good. I lost the post, from last night. But I'm going to summarise what I remember:

1) Am lonely
2) Longing for Minnesota
3) Stress about homework
4) Worry about spending too much money
5) Thought about trying to be less materialistic
6) Guilt over not remembering to do birthday things for Laura and Sarah
7) Wishing more friends would call, but also musing on how wasn't super close with people

That's what I can recall.

I honestly feel like I, whether unconsciously or not, reject people and push them away. I was reminded of this when a friend from Florence, Kate, invited me to watch Alias with her on Sunday, and I couldn't because I always watch with my floor. She replied, "Well, don't whine to me about not getting invited because you always turn me down!" or something to that effect, because previously, I had been writing notes with her, telling her she ought to have called me this weekend. And as I thought back, I realized it was true. However, most of the stuff she asks me to do, like clubbing, are things I don't care to do on a normal basis. So does this show that in order to have friends you have to want to do anything/everything?

Oh yes, welcome to our newest hostee! Check her out here!

08 February 2004

BTW, that's my current obsession. Karl Urban. Yup.

karl urban.. le sigh!

07 February 2004

There is nothing to make you feel rich like spending an afternoon in Bergdorf's. There is nothing to make you feel richer than getting offered a free "phacial" from the staff at Erno Laszlo. Oh yeah. And all this after lunch at Le Cirque 2000, the restaurant I mentioned in a previous post. I felt the food a trifle too salted, from the soup to the entree of salmon en croute. The dessert was also too rich, but good. Chocolate fondant, delicious!

After our (Suzanne and I) Bergdorf mooching, where we sniped like a couple of fishwives over fashion. Honestly, much of fashion is highly questionable. But our favorite: Zac Posen. Le sigh. Oh yes, and the gowns! Badgley Mischka, etc. I wanted to try them on, but felt as it was my first excursion to Bergdorf's, I ought not push it.

Our dinner was at Gobo's, a vegan restaurant that was DELICIOUS. We had this slow cooked Malaysian stew (I forgot the exact name--wait, roti canai?), yam & yucca fries (YUMMM), and ginger glazed shittake. And the cranberry bread to start with was wonderful because they gave us a sweet potato raisin spread with it. I will most definitely be eating there again! Good prices too.

06 February 2004

Too cool:

I was shelving at the library as usual for my volunteer job, when a guy comes and asks us to move our coats from the main room. We do, and I'm curious, so I ask him why. He replies, "I'm from Women's Wear Daily, and we're doing a shoot here."

Well, dear reader, I did not know what to say to that! I didn't want to appear a tourist, so I didn't stare at them openly. But apparently, they were doing a shoot inspired by Mona Lisa Smile, so the models all were wearing fifties style cardigans and tweed skirts. Mona Lisa Smile came out a long time ago though...

But that's not the most exciting part. They actually used my book cart in the shoot! I left it standing for a moment because I was done, and next thing I know, they asked if they could use it! So watch out for Women's Wear Daily and a Mona Lisa Smile inspired shoot! You could catch a glimpse of my book cart and the place where I volunteer, which is beautiful.

03 February 2004

Good (but strange) combination: peanut butter, fresh salsa, and sharp provolone cheese on whole wheat bagel. Ooooh yeah.

Raining. Yesterday the weather was positively spring-like. Wonderful. Was out and wondered why I felt so happy, then realized it was because the bitterly cold wind wasn't blowing at my face.

What else, what else. Odyssey is much better than Iliad. Eating lunch tomorrow at Molyvos, Greek restaurant.

02 February 2004

I am not in a phone mood right now.

Hopefully that explains my non-call-age of two people.

I'm okay, though. Been finding all these interesting sites, which I'll link another day. Gosh, I've been posting a lot. Other people just don't post enough. That's what I say.

01 February 2004

I just HAD to share this link: Who's Your Daddy? Don't worry, it's not porn or anything such. Instead, it's what British women wrote on Child Support Agency forms under 'Father's Details.'

Media update:

Finished reading High Maintenance by Jennifer Belle yesterday. Ugh. Ugh, ugh, ugh. From now on, I am not going to trust reviews of books. This book was supposedly 'wickedly witty' and 'irresistible.' Huh, more like 'crazily insane' and 'train-wreck fascinating.' It was about a New York gal, Liv Kellerman, who has a famous father but wants to be independent. So she becomes a realtor, and has a relationship with a really disgusting guy. The only reason I kept reading was because I was desperately hoping there was a point to the entire book.

There wasn't. I absolutely do not recommend the book. She went out with a guy who bit her ear off! And she still wanted to date him! Abhorrent.

So now I'm starting The Blue Sword by Robin McKinley. I read the prequel, The Hero and the Crown, and though I never felt quite close to the character, the story was engrossing. McKinley uses a third person tone which is sometimes lofty, and rings of "I KNOW this is going to be a classic." Also, need to read The Odyssey for class.

I've been listening to my iPod mix of Center Stage songs. Oh yeah, Jamiroquai rocks my socks off.

Watching? Just finished downloading the last episode of Sex and the City. I really don't understand Carrie and Aleks relationship. He feels like such a father figure. I say no no no. He is rather sweet though.

Retook the worth test-- apparently, I'm worth $2,363,744.00!

That's an increase of $400,000 from the last time I took the test, in February 2002.

OOhlalala.