I have to remember to look outside myself. There's a whole other world out there that I love.

Design. Helping others (web consulting, fighting sex trafficking). Cooking. Listening to old 50's songs. Writing.

Everything's not always about men.

I guess there'll always be a part of me that's flattered by boy attention. Yes indeed. It's not something I've gotten used to, which I think is a good thing, all in all.

What with the flowers sent to my cubicle and a cute professional chef asking for my number, it's bound to get to my head!

Except not really. Why do I always psych myself out? To prepare for the worst, I guess.

Okay so the Boris thing didn't work out.

Now I have a new friend. Brad. Well, hopefully we will be friends. And maybe more.

so much happening.

i think i might like boris.

we'll see where it goes.

Wonderful week-end with Dan.

Little moments. Carried my shopping bags. Held me when I was cold. When caught me in bra, walked away (he didn't know i saw). Did dishes even though hates doing them. Such a darling. Gives me hope.

A & I are definitely, officially broken up.

K blocked me on IM. I don't know why. But I am hating him right now, torn between insatiable curiosity at whether he is still online and tormenting myself with that knowledge at the same time. Such a masochist am I.

I really don't understand it. Because on Friday afternoon while I was at work, we had a perfectly lovely conversation as always. Then I didn't go online until Saturday night, on my secret screen name and he had been on for 10 hours at 11 PM. Goodness. But yes, he definitely has me blocked.

I asked Jeff about it in a roundabout way.. if he would ever block a girl he liked. He said perhaps if she is distracting or annoying. I hope, rather than believe, it to be the first. But mostly I am pessimistic about it. Stupid boy. After all, why would you go online if you didn't want to be distracted? Would he have blocked me yesterday because he was tired of waiting for me? I can't flatter myself such.

Well I believe A & I are broken up pretty much.

I just have to remember all the lovely things that have happened today:

I danced with Alex and he touched my aura. Okay. That sounds naughty, but it really wasn't like that.

Um.